me & Qi

*Hhmm~ me and Qi muii muii^^ she is a simple girl...she no need to worry about anything in her life,coz she know what she want the most...!!! same like me, freedom...we need more freedom lol...!!! i like her to be mu muii muii is bcoz i like her style her attitude her life...!!! sometimes she will come ask me or tell me her feeling...haizz~ She got a good boyfriend, that boy treat her so good...she tell me, good until she scare jorr~ hahaha...funny !!! we study same class wif me geh...that's why our relation very close lol^^ *Hope her happy allways la^^LOVE U muii muii^^ Sis Forever~

"Happy Moment Wif Friends"

Holidays...Shopping...KTV...!!!!

Hahaha...skul holiday lol...so happy...!!!
Yesterday was the last day we went to skul , we all sososo happy....and sososo miss each other lol....like want to saperate many years leh...!!!

After skul, me and some of my best friends went for shopping and KTV...!!!
Finish skul we come back home for awhile...then we call texsi...to fetch us go . When reach there we go KTV first.
In the KTV room hahahaha...we play like crazy ppl we sing like speaker so loud...!!! we were so high that times and my friends keep singing and shouting like crazy dog...hahaha^^
We also got taked many many pic of us...ha !!! u know la,right...girls ma...allways take pic geh..hehe~
erm...we also got oders 1 big bottles beers...to celebreated our holidays...!!! kaka ><" we all got a little bit dizzy dizzy lol^^one of my friend face became very red jorr...hahaha~ after that,we crazy until half jumpping and half singing on the sofa...!!! no choice,coz we alrdy crazy high... Finish KTV-ing, we go for shoppingggg !!! we buy a lot of things...bags,cloths,shoes and dress...wahh !!! so many things lol... After shopping, we also tired and went back home...!!! Allthor,we so tired...but we also very enjoying and happy that day...!!! *I allways think and ask "Why" those happy memories past so fast ???

My Skul Life

Waahh...my skul life...i will miss it very much...!!!
Hahaha...i'm so happy lol can study wif those nice friends,we all like a big happy family...all of my friends are very friendly verry funny very nice...if i got any problem,they will help me...!!!
Study wif them very very enjoy...!!! All peoples in skul are my friends, i dint have any enemy in skul...n i don like got enemy...!!! in my skul life, i got friends and best friends only...no other then that...
My best friends, sometimes when i was unhappy or sad...i will tell them,i will express all my feeling when i go skul . They will help me to solve my problems...they will "kai dao" me...
But when i'm happy,i will share wif them my happinest...
Sometimes we play,we will play very high...sometimes when we sutdy,we will very hard working...we allways like that,never change...!!!

"WE WERE FRIENDS FOREVER" (3A)

Plz remember this...

不要让爱你的人受到一丝一毫的伤害！不要等到失去了，才痛不欲生....

Again and Again arrr...

Im now so suffer
Im now so pain
Im now so sad
Im now so upset
Im now so down
Im now so tired

I really don't want to accept anything more in my life
I really already feel so tired
I really wish to give up everything

For those know about me sure will scold me
And will ask me to be brave
And will ask me to win all the challenge

But i really can't hold on anymore
Not because im weak
But i really tired
All the thing happen too sudden
I really can't accept the reality

I wish to give up
Sorry to all people who care and support me
I also wish to be with you forever
But i really have no more future due to my own problem

I really want to giveup

Today i don't know how many time i had faint down because of pain
The pain killer i have already i clear all
Now im so suffer due to my pain
But nothing i can do
I had to hold the pain
Is really suffer
Can it stop?
Please god..
Let it stop ok?
Please don't suffer me anymore
I know is my repay for treating you bad
Sorry
But please stop all the pain and bleeding
I already had enough
I really want to give up
Sorry....

"My Heart"

Death not the most scary thing
Death not the most hurt thing
Because every will be death one day
Just soon or later
Hurt by someone you trust and love the most is the scary thing
Betray by someone you trust and love the most is the scary thing
Hurt or betray by someone you love and trust the most is the worst thing
Because is so hard to get someone you do love and care in your life
Just can get once in your life
Maximum also two time in your life
Somemore is the one you trust the most
The pain is really hurt and painful
The wound in heart and mind will never recover
Nomatter how also will never recover
Can you imagine your heart as glass?
How if there is some crack on it?
Will it be ok?
No....
It will forever be there
It will never be ok...
Even choose to forget and forgive
The crack will forever be there
The crack forever so pain and obvious all the time
How many time you say sorry or do what also will never recover it
My heart got 3 crack now
The last one i get is the worst one...
Because it is the relationship i treassure and care the most....

so empty...

My heart feel so empty
Make me feel so cold
I can't get anymore warm now
I can't feel anymore warm now
I also don't know what i can do
I just know you are the only one make my heart full and warm....

haizzz

I don't know why until now i still can't control my tears....
Each time i remember back our memory
Each time i read back message you sent me
Each time i saw our photo
Also i can't control to drop my tears again and again....
I'm so tired....

Love is Blind

When you really love someone
You will totally blind
Nomatter what had happen also you won't care
What you care just be togather with the one you love
Nomatter how people tell you also you won't going to hear

Is she love you

When a Girl is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.
When a Girl is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply
When a Girl looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering
how long you will be around.
When a Girl answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine.
When a Girl stares at you ... she is wondering why you are lying.
When a Girl lays on your chest ... she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a Girl wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.
When a Girl says ' I love you ' ... she means it.
When a Girl says ' I miss you ' ... no one in this world can miss you more than that.
Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person....
Find a Guy .. who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who ... kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

aarrgghh !!! so sad so angry....

Ridiculous…really ridiculous…make me angry till can’t breathe…What kind of people also I don’t know…in this world you will not find another person that act like this…this is the first time i feel that friends are more important than your girlfriend…if so…then you better marry with your friend la...more easyer wat...!!!
Let me ask you…where you can find a girlfriend that let you go out with your friends all the time and whenever you want…where you can find a girlfriend that never scold you for never accompany her…i never request anything from…i just need you to more care me…and don’t always left me alone and ignore me…is it this kind of request also counted over???is it???ok…if weekdays you busy work till no time to reply my message,i still can accept…but after work and during night you didn’t company me... i really can’t accept…but did i say anything???did i???everytime i be patience…everytime i forgive and forget…then the more i forgive…seems like you don’t care…you just acting more and more over…everytime you got many excuses…when is the time i never say"ok la ok la or nvm lol next time la"…but until today you really make me angry…don’t you know that everyone patience got limit???i also human being…can’t you juz treat me more good???just because we already long time didn’t realy talk to each other…so i always take the first step to call you…but in the end…after for only 2 or 3 minutes conversation…you said don’t wanna talk already…don’t you know that really hurt my feeling…and the reason you gave…don’t you think is very lame excuses…i really dissappointed…really really dissappointed aaarrrggghhh....

I realy hope that u will change...plz...!!!

STOP SUFFERING&FASTER END IT

I wish...stop suffering and faster end it our relastion aaarrrgghhh !!!
I m so tired aaarrrggghhh !!!
Y U wan to make me so SUFFER ????
Y U wan to make me so SAD ????
Y U wan to make me so LOVE U ????
Y U wan to make me so MISS U ????
Y U wan to make me so HATE U ????
I realy don wan got that feeling again,coz it hurting me very pain and very deep in heart...
Do U knw that ?????? Do U realy ask me before ?????? Do U knw i'm so SUFFER...SAD ????
"I juz wan to knw...DO U KNW THIS ALL THINGS ????

Poems For Friends

*Leaves may fall
Flowers may die...
Friends may forgot
But never shall i...
*Made new friends
Do not forget the old...
For one is silver
The other is gold...
*Aroud the Penang Island
The sea is blue...
In this world
One of my friend is you...
*Sun or rain
Fat or thin...
You are my friend
And that is the dearest thing...
*Today is treasure
Tomorrow is future...
Remember me forever
When we are not together...
*Roses are red
Violets are blue...
Suger are sweet
But not as sweet as you...

The day my cousin's wedding

That day is my cousin's wedding....they celebrate in a restoren at Seberang Jaya there...
Jn that day also got come,coz my father call him to come....
me n my frens sit at same table...
Jn also sit wif me,but he is not my boyfren already.He juz pretend be my boyfren in front of my family...coz my family don no we are broke up already...
I don no how to tell them.So,i din tell them...!!!
But that day me n Jn act like real couple...very happy...very lovely...very sweet n very funny too..
Don no y..when that time,i feld like very happy lol...coz already long time we din get together so happy...until want to cry...but at last i also no cry out~~
Me n Jn drink too much beer n wine...we hug...we laugh..we drink n we drunk~~
After that Jn also go back to his home...me also go back my home...!!!
Don no y...i suddently cry very loud in my room alone...Coz i feel all this happening to night are fake...all are juz pretending only...all are fake fake fake arrrrrrr.......!!!!!!! Not real....
*Until today i still very miss the thing that happen that day in the restoren...
*Mayb Jn don no about my feeling...coz i don want let him know ...coz i don want him to think too much...coz i want him to forget me...coz i wan him to be happy without me...coz i still very love him.....

LoVe=rOsEs

*If our relationship is like a rose, how long it lasts, no one will actually know. Love can erase all the awful past. And love can be yours, but you’ll only realise in the end… To feel that love, it sometimes makes you sigh… But to have it to leave, some of you would rather die. A successful marriage requires falling in love many times, always with the same person… I hereby hope that you’ve found that special rose, and that you love and care for the one you’ve chose…
*Which is right and what is wrong … I hope u have the answer deep down at the bottom of your heart …

The feeling of loving someone...

You can’t stop loving or wanting to love because when its right, it’s the best thing in the world. When you’re in a relationship and it’s good, even if nothing else in your life is right, you feel like your whole world is complete. Love comes when manipulation stops; when you think more about the other person than about his or her reactions to you. When you dare to reveal yourself fully. When you dare to be vulnerable, u’re ready for love.

*About Men*

*Men say they love independence in a woman, but they don’t waste a second demolishing it brick by brick. Especially those women who has their strong financial stability n career. The relationship is harder to handle. When love became a comparison, the feeling of challenged n imbalance between two will break the love u had. My first relationship lasted for years but didn’t work out because the man i love couldn’t handle the stress i’d caused. My career, my lifestyle. Though we were so in love, the second i got my feet into business n the society, it changes everything n tore us apart. We started to see a big difference in our income n stability. Our needs for different lifestyle, different things~
* A guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep… wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you’re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky his is to have you…. The one who turns to his friends and says, ‘that’s her.’ I found mine, and i wish that u too, found yours~

*About Women*

*Some say that there is fairy tale in life. But some say there is none. Well, i agree with both. A woman has got to love a bad man once or twice in her life, to be thankful for a good one. In the end of the day, it is up to us to paint the beautiful picture that we had in our dreams… When our man strayed too far out, it is us to get them back, or let them out. Never underestimate how great n powerful a woman can be. Just look at ur mom. She gave u a life ~
*Women marry men hoping they will change. Men marry women hoping they will not. So each is inevitably disappointed. Men have hitherto treated women like birds which have strayed down to them from the heights; as something more delicate, more fragile, more savage, stranger, sweeter, soulful - but as something which has to be caged up so that it shall not fly away. It is because of insecureness that they have, the feeling of losing, the feeling of lost control, taking control…

D way you can choose !!!

Flatter me, and I may not believe you. Criticize me, and I may not like you. Ignore me, and I may not forgive you. Encourage me, and I will not forget you. Love me and I may be forced to love you … Hate me … and i Love U ~
So,what u choose ??? Dont tell me d answer...coz i already don care...

Learning....

Learn to accept that not everyone likes the things u do. There’s a saying - A successful person makes a habit of doing what the failing person doesn’t like to do. So stick to what u love, stick to the things u do ~ And let the others say what they wanna say. Besides, how many of them can actually do the things u do ? They can’t, that’s why they wanna talk about u. They can’t do the things u do n they can’t have the things u have… therefore they can only talk about u n hope that our lives will be miserable~ Blah ~ People who are capable wouldn’t have time gossiping about what others do, what they have, this n that, so n so. They are too busy doing their own things, taking their own sweet time while others r talking. Those who talk alot, in their mind, they know that words are powerful. But little did they know that only if words are put into actions ~ Duh ! But it is good coz when they put too much of it together, they made us - A highlighted story to tell… and by then we’ve made our mark ~How easy is that ~

Juz Laughter...

Learn to laugh it over when u heard things that others say about you. Remember, nobody can hurt you without your permission. If u don’t like them, then don’t grant them one ! Through humour, you can soften some of the worst blows that life delivers. And once you find laughter, no matter how painful your situation might be, you can survive it~

Friendship...

Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another, ‘What! You too? I thought I was the only one?’…and then u share, u help, u give, u listen, u laugh… Until one day, they take away their love from u… and they say everything about u differently… It is dangerous to play the sincere game without defence unless you are also stupid. Friendship is always born with love, but it does not always die with it. Moral indignation happens when there is some slight of jealousy in a halo. And when jealousy feeds upon suspicion, it turns into fury or it ends as soon as we pass from suspicion to certainty…and there comes hatred ~

How to play the games in your life...!!!

First, you have to learns the rules of the game...
Andthen you have to play better than anyone else...
That's the game u must play everyday...

love yourself....

If people hate the things u love,learn the things they hate...
And learn to love yourself just the way u are .
*Just like how all your frens love you...

Funny....Cute....

Today got one boy...come to my house...
He very funny lol,coz he ask my father permission to talking wif me...
Coz nobody can so brave to talk wif my father leh...my father quite fierce...
So,my father very like him lol...
Hahaha...my father asking me..."is that boy wan u to be his gf ?"
I say "ya..mayb lol...don no worr"
Hahaha...that boy so cute, handsome,polite n rich lol...
But i wont be his gf...coz,i still cant forget someone...!!!

We Are One-Kelly Sweet

*Didn't need to ask don't knw the reason...
Everything that i believe is right here...
Not thinking 'bout tomorrow could't catch it if i tried...
World is spinning too fast so i'll wait till it come to me...
"I am you,You are me,We are one"
*Take me in your arms and flow through me i'll flow through you...
Steal my breath away cause i'm so maved by you...
Deeper than i ever thought was possible,was possible it's everything...
Difference between me and you...
It's all in where your heart list...
And every day's another chance so let's get it right...
"I am you,You are me,We are one"
Take me in your arms and flow through me i'll flow through you...
*Did you lose yourself out there...
Did you lose faith and give up...
Don't turn away and hide yourself...
Cause there's a friend to make along the way...
We are the heartbeat and our souls speak...
And all the beauty i have ever dreamed...
Is right here in front of me...
Is right here in front of me...
*"I am you,And you are me,We are one"
*Take me in your arms and flow through me i'll flow through you...*

Why Why Why ???

Y u want to lie me ??
Y u want to hurting me ??
Y u want to make me hate u ??
Y u leaving me alone ??
Y u want to kiss me ??
Y u want to hug me so tight ??
Y u want to say " u love me " ??
u saw me crying becoz of u...
Do u feel happy now ??
What u really want from me ??
Is'zit i'm not good enough for u ??
Is'zit i treat u not good enough ??
Is'zit i do something wrong ??
Y u choose to give up ??
Y our story ended so fast ??
Do u care me before ??
Do u love me before ??
Y u change so fast ??
Can we be together again in future ??

My Heart Will Go On...

Every night in my dreams i see u,i feel u...
that is how i go on
far across the distance and spaces between us...
you have come to show u do on
Near..far..wherever you are i believe that the heart does go on...
once more u open the door,and u'r in my heart...
and my heart will go on and on
love can touch us one time,and last for a life time,and bever let go till we're gone...
love was when i loved you...
You're here there's nothing i fear...
And i know that my heart will go on...
We'll stay forever this way...
You're safe in my heart...
And my heart will go on...and on...!!!
~hope u will understand~

How do i live without you ???

How do i live without u ?
I want to konw...
How do i breathe without u ?
If u ever go,how do i ever..ever survive ?
Without u there'd be no sun in my sky...
There would be no love in my life...
There'd be no world left for me...
There r no meaning for me in my life...

LOVE....

*Is very hard to love someone who doesn't love youThe time to love and wait is really suffer and tiringBut if you feel she or he is worth for you to keepSo you must be brave to stick to your heartSince you maybe get regret afterwardBecause nobody will predict what is going to be happen in the next secondAll not on our handWhat on our hand just to work hand and wait patientlyEven now she or he not belong to youBut who will know at the next minute he or she belong to you?So you must be brave in this momentMaybe not much people will going to supportOr maybe will tease why you are so stupid to wait something maybe have no resultThen you should ask youself do he or she worth for you to sacrifice your energy your timeIf you feel is not worthPlease give up because you will feel very tired along the journeyAnd what i can say is you don't really love the personSo you not deserve to have he or sheBut when you are very sure to yourself that is worth for you to do whatever thing to he or sheEven he or she will never know what you had didEven he or she will never feel the thing you had didBut at least you will still be okAs long as you love he or sheL-O-V-E is very incredible and specialWhen you found you love someoneYou will do a lot of thing that you will never do beforeOr do those thing you dislike beforeBecause not just you enjoy the moment with he or sheBut also wish he or she be happySo whenever he or she askPlease never rejectAnd accept itAnd must try your best to make it perfectBecause he or she will love whatever you had didWhen you love someoneYou will slowly change yourselfMaybe you will found that you lost yourselfBut actually you also get happinessActually love is just a very simple thingEveryone also will have loveEveryone also will love someoneMaybe just love one in your entire lifeOr will love dozen of people in your entired lifeBut you only will found the one you wish to have rest of your life withOnce you found the onePlease grab it tightIf you miss itYou maybe will never found back the one who really can have for your rest of lifeIs it miracleBut life is like thisWe never challenge our destiny but only can accept itSince what we going to face already destiny by god once we are bornSo please appreciate whatever you have nowEven you have miss the one you really appreciatePlease waitPlease empty your heartBecause one day he or she will found you actually are the bestOnce you have back please appreciate wellSince god already give you 2 chanceIf you still miss the chance given by godNobody else will sympathy you anymoreHuman must learn to fall down before learn to walkHuman must learn to lose before know to loveSound stupid rightBut we are humanSo we are not perfectSo we must tolerate with each otherAs long as the person really love youThen will never lie youIf the person really care youThen will always cheer you up after you are hurt and sadSo we must learn to forget and forgiveIt is very importantBecause nobody is perfectIf you really love he or sheYou will only found out how good is he or sheBut not keep look for his or her weaknessIf you really do soBelieve me..this love will never last longEach couple also will quarrelEach couple also got weaknessSo please keep give excuse to look for better oneWhile the one with you now already quiet goodBecause you will never found who is 100% perfectAnd maybe you will get hurt and hurt again along the roadBut it is good tooSince you will only be matured and grow up afterwardThis the route to learnEven myself also the sameWhat i have learn maybe is not enough for me to love and care someoneBut i will keep continue to learn
and learn....

Meaning of "FAMILY"

The meaning of family is...
"father and mother...i love you"
*Daddy Mummy i'm so sorry,i know i allways hurting u so bad and so pain...i can feel it how pain it is...
Sometimes i done something bad...hurting daddy and mummy feeling...
After that,i will think it back how good n how care was my mummy treat me before...
I will feld so happy and warm,becoz still got somebody care me...i'm not alone...
But sometimes i feld very lonely at home...nobody at home,juz me and the big house...
I understand my parents want to work hard,becoz want give me a better life...
But i don want a better life..i juz want a warm sweet happy family...
It'zit so hard ???
Every times i feel sad i need somebody to talk or somebody can stand beside me and give me some support,but no one will be witme...
Allways juz me crying in the room witout ppl knowing...
~Is that call Family?~

Sorry...For what i have done...!

I cry becoz i feld sorry for what i have done to my family...
But i think is too late for apologize...
*I know if i say how many times sorry also no use,now i want to find somebody to talk also nobody will listen...
*I know i let u all so disappointed and sad,but this time i really sorry...
Maybe u all will think i'm pretending or acting in front of u,but i'm serious...
I dont want u all 100% trust me...
I juz want u all know that i will prove it...

Juz give me some times to do my best...

Thanks For All My Friends

Some of my friends say :

• He is juz a bus-stop for u,since the bus start the journey le...then wait next de lol...if u r in luck,mayb u can direct reach thr...meet ur the Mr.Right...!!!
• Cry for a boy like that is not worth for u geh...think twice la,so po...i will support u nomatter wat or how far we were...!!!
• Boys are so many in this world...he juz the lucky one...that can be ur bf...dont give up all those other boys lol...!!!

Juz me n you...Sunday,11/10/2009...(R.bit)

Today i sleep until evening 2.46pm...! my feeling still very bad lol...
i try to forget it all...force myself dont think too much...!
Later,nothing will happen geh...!
In 4.38pm he send massage for me...!
he say" we better break up la,coz we not suitable for each other " !!!
wat the fuck reason he give me...so shit lol...i cant accept it..!!!

REALLY MAKE ME SO SAD ARRR...CRY UNTIL NO TEARS ARRR...!!!

After that,i replay his massage...i said"ok lol..you feel happy then ok la,i tough we will be together forever geh...before u tell me geh things all promises also no used jor not real geh...ok lol...break ma break lol...! hope you will happy always la...i already don no what to say jorr...good bye !!!

That's all lol i tell him...he also no replay me jorr...
"GAME OVER" loved you....

Juz me n you...Saturday,10/10/2009...(R.bit)

Is saturday night,his house open a BBQ party...he suppose wil invite me go...!
I already know his house got open BBQ party,i juz wan wait him to invite me go...but,he also dint invite me go...!
His mother,sister and friends also got invite me...but why he dint invite me ??? why why why ??? why,he can do like this to me...he dont no is very hurting me geh meh???
At last,i also got attend to d party...! i saw him act like very busy doing something...he pretand dint saw me at all...!
Nvm...! suddently, one of his friend come and tell me that...in the party one of those girls are his new girlfriend~
In that time that minutes my heart already broken jorr....!
really feld wan cry out louder lol...but cant cry...!!! dont no why lol...!!! really don no arr...

Juz me n you...Wednesday,23/09/2009....(R.bit)

Until today i still keeping calling him...! in the evening,i don no who used his hp send a massage for me, telling me don keeping calling him coz i'm his girlfriend...! i guess is his friend juz playing wif me only...so i also din think too much...juz forget it~
After that,i call him..still don wan answer lol...nvm !
I try call his mum, she say he din at home juz go out wif friensds...then,later she will infrom him to call me back...! ok lol...i wait lol~
Wait until night...he finaly send me a massage,but he juz ask me"u juz now find me forwat arr?" OMG....make me damn sad lol~
I tough he will asking me something or wat...but no lol...! i also lazy replay him jorr....until 2 weeks more lol...he also no find me...! must wait until i call him...then he juz sometimes answer my call lol...! haizz....

Juz me n you...Tuesday,22/09/2009....(R.bit)

Before this happening , in d evening, we went out watching movies together...that time we were very happy n enjoying those time...
After that,at the night i keep calling and send massage for him...he also don wan replay me...in that time u make me so worry about it...! i don no what is happening to him...
really make me so worry...! until midnight i also keep calling him....